Lalalala love~

Happiness cancels out all the negative.

So I have a ton to say and write about but lets just keep it simple. I am feeling extremely motivated to do something exciting with my life, and make it worth while even if I am doing it by my self. Today has been good, no drama or tears. I feel like my life is content right now but at the same time I want to get out there while this joy inside is happening and share it. I have been getting on the social networking sites lately and it is pretty depressing when you’re in a wonderful mood and then all you can read all the way down the screen is negative things or something about someone  feeling worthless. It hasn’t ruined my joy because the joy I have is pure and I have been waiting on this kind of happiness for so long that this feels like a ton of bricks have been lifted. I remember days when I would think back and couldn’t even remembered the last time I smiled and now I smile all the time. I truly believe that a day without laughter is a day wasted. I also believe a day without something positive or music is a day wasted. So why waste your days being unhappy? I’m not sure where people think happiness comes from but I can tell you that the only pure joy doesn’t come from girls or guys, but from true friends and God. It took me a little while to figure that out but now that I have my life is so much easier and filled with joy. If your looking for that pure joy then I would suggest talking to God and asking him to restore your happiness.(: Joy is so much more  enjoyable than depression or sadness.~

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You are never alone~

So here lately I’ve been speaking a lot of my hardships or aka death. Well I realized that I was telling you about them but not really explaining how to trust in something greater when you are going through those hard times. I feel the need now to help those out there who need to be shown the light at the end of the tunnel the rainbow after the storm. I personally know that those things are there but maybe you need help seeing them.

Hebrews 11:1  Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

That verse specifically says we are to have faith in the unseen. Though you may not be able to see what God is doing in your life you must believe he is there regardless of the hardships. He is there throughout everything. I want to list a few things in my life that show me God has been there through it all. Some of you may know most of this and others will have no Idea that I have been through so much.

• When I was 5 the first day of kindergarten my physical father died.
• I have had first hand experience in someone ruining there lives with drugs.
• I have had family and friends betray me.
• I have had friends try to kill their selves with me in the room.
• I have sat in many rooms while people were taking their last breath, more funerals than any regular 14yo.
• I have lost most trust in most people.
• I wanted my life to be over, I was willing to get in a wreck with any car who decided to get in the wrong lane.
• I was almost an aborted child.
• Many many other things

I don’t tell you these things to make you say aww.. Or feel bad for me, believe me that is the last thing
I want from anyone. I tell you these things because I know that through all that he was there. Though it may seem like nothing to you and your life,God got me through it and I am breathing and living a good life though it may have its hard times. I know that whatever your going through you can get through it with a little faith, maybe you dont have a God or you don’t have a belief system but you can always have faith that your family and friends will help you get through things. If you have no one or you feel lost in this big world let me tell you your not. You are just needing someone to believe in. If you ever need anyone, I am always here regardless if I don’t know you or I have known you for years I am always willing to help someone have something to believe in. I mean after all God put you here for a reason and he never gives you a task you can’t handle.

There is always someone to catch you when you fall~

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