I pray angels protect you.~

I know I said I didn’t but I did. I loved you somewhere along the line, and now I wish I never met you. Not because  I hate you or don’t like you but honestly because my life would be better without that feeling. We made plans and promises that not your or I kept, we were young and hoping for the best.

All girls wonder, what their wedding day will be like, what the feeling of love is like, holding your first kid, accomplishing a goal, and so much more. Our minds wander and explore. Someone once said “girls start making wedding plans just because he said hi to you” It’s true. No one knows why, not even the girl. Guys get upset because we get attached and to emotional, when there is nothing we can do about it. I don’t know why everyone wants us to live in a box, when in reality our wonders that I mentioned up there usually turn into dreams, so we start dreaming early and hoping for the best, sue us. Our parents say you can do anything if you set your mind to it and they’re songs talking about wishing on stars and making dreams come true. I personally think girls learn how to handle life better because with each dream there is a let down, from falling off a bike and getting back up to falling in and out of love. Being able to move on with life after every let down since we were young makes us strong.

Love is stronger than the pressure to be perfect.♥

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& maybe it will all be better in the end~

I have a lot of things on my mind right now, some of them bad because I have no control over them, some sad because things didn’t turn out how I hoped, and others just plain complicated.

• You tend to say things or not say things at the right times, which may I say throws my head into a complete whirl wind.
• Sitting here thinking about how life could have been sucks.
• Hoping for better makes me happy but a little insane because better is not how it used to be. You ruined my better, and for that I will never be the same.
• There’s two people that know EVERYTHING and even then I only wan’t one and they’re not a part of either of the two.
• I might have erased your texts, but I will never forget what you wrote. We might have stopped talking, but I will never forget your voice. We might have stopped hugging, but I will never forget how you smell. Anything you did, I will never forget.:Via Tumblr.
•  Everyone chose you, I only have the ones who don’t know the real you, and even then I might have chose you as well if only it hadn’t ended like this.

There was very little good that came from this but it did come, I don’t lie anymore because all my stories have been told, the weight of us has been lifted and only God can be thanked for that. Now that you’re not here I wish I could have let go then, not having to deal with the pain of letting go now because it is slowly suffocating me. I am broken, you broke me, I look in the mirror and I want to scream because I want the old me back but I know that isn’t happening, and nothing can change this.

Whoever said growing up was fun or good, lied and I hope they are burning in hell.

Honesty is all I have anymore..♥

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