The Black & The White.~

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When I see your smile, tears run down my face~

I’m so blessed to have a WordPress because it is my place. The place where I can put my emotions on the page and be okay. These emotions aren’t bad, just me being me. I have to keep telling my self “good things come to those who wait” because I am a very impatient person. I don’t like waiting although I have to do it all the time in life. I have got so impatient I really don’t like waiting on a train or a light, whereas a year ago I was fine with it. I truly believe patience is a virtue, one that I am trying to grasp back into this thing I call life. I think that is all for now.

Have a wonderful weekend to you & yours.~

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I went sky diving~

So it’s that type of night where music plays as loud as it goes to block all but a few in the world out in a good way. At the moment I really like life even if I have had some bad times today. I love being able to feel at peace with myself and others because I don’t have any weight on my shoulders. I love having wonderful people in my life who I can trust and not have to worry about who will have my back in the end. I really love music and how it can lift your mood, along with good friends. I’m really excited to get to start driving soon, and being able to feel a little more independent. I was listening to What about now by Lonestar earlier and I really like these lyrics:

What about now, why should we wait
We can chase these dreams down the interstate
And be long gone ‘fore the world moves on and makes another round
What about now
We could hang around this town forever making plans
But there won’t ever be a better time to take this chance.

 

It is mostly self explanatory, but it makes me just want to get out there and do something with this life of mine. You never know when you will take your last breath so just like it says why wait to do something, why not take that chance, why let little things get in the way of you following your dreams & achieving your goals?

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What are you seeing?~

Wow.. So winter break rocked my world, to the point where I feel like now I am having to get back in to a different time zone. :p I miss everyone of their darling faces, and I really wish I got to see them more often because being so far away is dumb. I have decided I want a few states and countries to merge. I am coming off this high that I was on, for the lack of sleep and happiness running through my veins, I think that if this is how drug addicts feel then I am so glad I don’t do drugs because this is not fun. The emptiness is being filled now by music, currently superchick stand in the rain. I cried earlier when I spent 20 minutes starring at myself to decide what to do with myself at that point, I ended up falling asleep. Now I am awake, and thinking of eating a carrot, I’m pretty sure I’m addicted now.

At the end of it all I’m very blessed to be in your arms.~

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& the water is rising quick

We can’t be sure when it will subside~

There’s all this unsaid stuff, it clogs up the pores of life.  It makes situations awkward and unbearable sometimes. I hate not talking but evermore sometimes talking is to much to handle. So what do we do then, at that moment when you’re stuck in the awkward spot but not willing or ready to talk about the problem? We breathe, take a step back and think about the actions we are about to take, ask our selves if walking away is better than sticking through the awkard moment and just letting that person know that you are there and that is all you can do right now. It’s a very hard thing to do but when you do it eventually there will become results.
The thing is everyone has all these emotions, love, hate, anger, happiness, joy,disbelief..etc. But noone knows what to do with them or where to put them. Do we express our ever most feelings even if it means hurting one person but also it could mean helping another? What is a person to do. Well in reality anyone can tell you that expressing an emotion will open someone or something up, maybe it will upset someone, or maybe because you told someone you could end up in a relationship which could end up in marriage. All these emotions can affect our world so much I think that is why nobody knows how, when, or where to express them. The truth to that is, ultimately there is not “right” time for anything. So the best way to deal with these crazy emotions is to let them out and tell someone, whether that be person to person, blogging, singing, or what ever you find that works when it comes to expressing yourself. My point in all this, is our society is shy and lazy. We hide behind excuses and reasons why to not do something, it’s time to step up and let our emotions be heard.
Over all love is louder than the pressure to be perfect, so stop trying to act like everyone else. Be you.
Have a lovely evening.~

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The beginning process~

Someone once asked “what are your goals in life or do you even have any?”  Then there was another question asked, “are you living your life wholeheartedly or are you just going through it like nothing matters?” Well in my head I answered both those questions in many thoughts, it made me write lists and things I want to accomplish in life and, ways I want to truly live. I could tell you those things  but right now I’m still in the writing process. I have many hopes, dreams, and goals for the future. I’ve been told many times that my standards are set to high and, my lists of accomplishments are to long also, that I will never achieve my goals. For some reason I never take those people seriously, I believe with all my heart that with help from God, friends, and family I will be able to check off every thing on those lists. The main thing that those questions made me think of wasn’t who or what I wanted to be, where I planned to live, who I wanted to marry, how many kids I wanted to have. No, but the question “if God decides that these plans that I have, these lists I am making aren’t what he wants me to do will I be okay with that?” Well the answer is yes. I am not one of those people who give up easily nor do I get discouraged easily but I do believe that God has an attendancy to change people’s plans and that is just fine with me. So yes you could say that my goals aren’t set in stone. I do know what I want to be and I will make plans to do so but I will not be one to blame God if my plans don’t turn out how I wanted them to.I think people need to accept things in life and realize that sometimes there is a reason your not doing what you planned to be doing at this moment in life. I see many people worry about not having a job or even a good one. Well I really just want to encourage you to trust that God has it in his hands and he commands you not to worry, you must believe with your whole heart that he has it taken care of. He will do what is best for you in the long run.

 

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