When I see your smile, tears run down my face~

I’m so blessed to have a WordPress because it is my place. The place where I can put my emotions on the page and be okay. These emotions aren’t bad, just me being me. I have to keep telling my self “good things come to those who wait” because I am a very impatient person. I don’t like waiting although I have to do it all the time in life. I have got so impatient I really don’t like waiting on a train or a light, whereas a year ago I was fine with it. I truly believe patience is a virtue, one that I am trying to grasp back into this thing I call life. I think that is all for now.

Have a wonderful weekend to you & yours.~

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These streets are dead just waiting to come alive.~

I find it so sad that our society nowadays can’t handle the fact that sex is a post-marital thing, meaning after marriage. The fact that you can’t have enough dignity to stay pure & keep your body and soul to your self, that you just give it all away the moment there is an opportunity is trashy and makes you look “easy”. The girls who do this think that guys respect them for it, well newsflash it will only make them see you as a piece of “meat”. I know for a fact that it is not hard to wait & save you’re self. With that said I also know there is pressure, but the word “no” feels good coming out of your mouth rather that saying yes and regretting it later, because frankly you don’t have sex physically and I don’t care how many people think they can, it is impossible. It’s emotional more than anything, because it is a passionate thing. Which is why it shouldn’t be something taken so lightly.

People throw the words love and hate around like they’re nothing. People in general say I hate you all the time, in Deuteronomy 22:13-18 it says;

• 13 If any man take a wife, and go in unto her, and hate her,
•  ¹⁴ And give occasions of speech against her, and bring up an evil name upon her, and say, I took this woman, and when I came to her, I found her not a maid:
•  ¹⁵ Then shall the father of the damsel, and her mother, take and bring forth the tokens of the damsel’s virginity unto the elders of the city in the gate:
•  ¹⁶ And the damsel’s father shall say unto the elders, I gave my daughter unto this man to wife, and he hateth her;
•  ¹⁷ And, lo, he hath given occasions of speech against her, saying, I found not thy daughter a maid; and yet these are the tokens of my daughter’s virginity. And they shall spread the cloth before the elders of the city.
•  ¹⁸ And the elders of that city shall take that man and chastise him;

-King James Version.

So when did that stop? Why is it so okay to have sex before marriage and for us to hate? It’s not, sadly enough we are a very irresponsible society.

On the other hand, why do we throw love around like it’s nothing. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but when someone says ily it is different that I Love you. When you spell it out it is symbolizing you care more that you do with ily. So why are we always telling someone I love you, when love is not a simple thing. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 says;

• ⁴ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ⁵ or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. ⁶ It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. ⁷ Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
•  ⁸ Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever!

-New Living Translation

People say you can fall in and out of love, well sorry to tell you it never was love if it is past tense. Even in the circumstance of death you can still love someone.  Love never ends so next time you go and tell someone you love them think about what you are saying, that you will be patient and kind, not jealous or boastful, proud or rude, not demanding, irritable, and you don’t hold a grudge against another person. That you don’t say I told you so, that you will never give up or lose faith in this person, that you will always hope and in the worst of worsts you stay.
I myself have a lot to work on in the language of love but it is worth it, because if you truly “love someone” you won’t have issues with working on your problems in order to love them more.

~When you’re honest with yourself that is when you can start expecting to be that better person because no one is perfect, and accepting struggles within is one of the hardest things to do.~ 

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I pray angels protect you.~

I know I said I didn’t but I did. I loved you somewhere along the line, and now I wish I never met you. Not because  I hate you or don’t like you but honestly because my life would be better without that feeling. We made plans and promises that not your or I kept, we were young and hoping for the best.

All girls wonder, what their wedding day will be like, what the feeling of love is like, holding your first kid, accomplishing a goal, and so much more. Our minds wander and explore. Someone once said “girls start making wedding plans just because he said hi to you” It’s true. No one knows why, not even the girl. Guys get upset because we get attached and to emotional, when there is nothing we can do about it. I don’t know why everyone wants us to live in a box, when in reality our wonders that I mentioned up there usually turn into dreams, so we start dreaming early and hoping for the best, sue us. Our parents say you can do anything if you set your mind to it and they’re songs talking about wishing on stars and making dreams come true. I personally think girls learn how to handle life better because with each dream there is a let down, from falling off a bike and getting back up to falling in and out of love. Being able to move on with life after every let down since we were young makes us strong.

Love is stronger than the pressure to be perfect.♥

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I found a real love and he is my ransom~

I finally know that I’m where I’m suppose to be
so I raise my hands I get on my knees
because there is nothing like the day the Spirit captured me
and there is no one greater I surrender I don’t need another Savior
I’m never going to run~

 

All the times we had, all the memories made. I want to thank you, no matter how badly I’m hurt thank you for those good times. You truly cared at one point and time, as of now I’m not so sure. I realize you were a great person but you scared me with weapons sharper than knives or blades. It’s time for me to move on and I realize that now. So I’m sorry for any pain this may cause you but I am done. I love you, goodbye.

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Un-ending Love~

Throughout these past few weeks I’ve realized that people can be very disrespectful towards others even though those certain people may have done nothing to them. I see this happen all day almost everyday, it’s not something I enjoy watching or even hearing. It made me reflect on how I act and when I have those “terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days” I realized that most people who act disrespectful are usually having a bad day. So then I ask myself when I have those days does that give me the right to act that way toward those innocent people who have done nothing? My answer is no, it does not. I don’t think it gives anyone the right to do that, but we all do. I keep having these thoughts of kindness and how to be nicer.
In conclusion I realized that when we have those bad days we need to realize that there is other ways to express your feelings rather than being disrespectful and using unkind words. Also that when we notice someone else is doing that, instead of saying “Oh she is in a bad mood, stay away from her” we should go up to that person and ask if they want to talk about it or even just give some encouraging words. If they say that they would rather not talk about it just make sure they know you are willing to listen if they need to blow some steam. We all have our best friends we do that with but how many times do we ask someone we rarely talk to if they want to talk about their problems? I don’t honestly know that we do. If you do well kudos to you, I need to work on it. It is an act of caring and it shows that you are not just all about you and your friends but that you also care about everyone else as well.
~Love never ends and this is a way to show the love.

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